I Selectively SUPPRESSED my BAD MEMORIES

Combine the two words written in title in capitals - "SUPPRESSED MEMORIES".

These were the memories which were hurtful as hell, these memories used to change my happy new shiny day into a gloomy & yet another depressing day, causing stress and sadness. 

Even if sadness weighs down on your heart,
keep happiness take you high up.

You know , in our subconciousness, 

there is only one person we love the most, its OURSELF. 

Even if you are denying it now, this blog will make you

realise how this statement is 99% correct.

So, what about the remaining teeny-tiny 1% ? Why don't we love ourselves upto a full marked century? That's because that 1% consist of low self esteem, stress ,anxiety etc.

And when we change our focus from that whole 99% to 1% , our perspective of viewing our life changes ,we often find ourselves sulking over a sad memory which is not going to give us anything but a continuous headache. I used to be just like this. I focused on that 1% and my life became a living hell ! 

And obviuosly if i'm sad , how will i be able to create a happy memory? only sad ones will end up adding right?

But here's the thing I didn't know what really is happening with me but these days even when i try to remember a certain memory which hurted me badly a few months ago, i can't seem to remember it anymore as if my mind is blackboard and someone erased those memories which were written by chalk, only the bad ones are erased . Its as if a guardian angel is sitting inside my brain and does not want me to be sulking anymore and just wants me to move on. 

Actually this is an actual thing in which people often forget tormenting memories well mostly it happens when they have been bullied , harrased or assaulted but as i am an emotional freak so even small things create a big impact on my brain, so i read about it that why am i forgetting things like these so i came across a blessing (disguised as a disorder) which is commonly known as SELECTIVE MEMORY SUPPRESSION.

A good disorder i would say. Well to be presice, my brain's Lateral Prefrontal Cortex supressed those memories which caused me immense pain. Now does this prove to y'all that in our subconsciousness the being we truly love and care about is Ourselves?It does right?Your own BRAIN SAVED YOU from falling into more misery, what could be better than this!

Now let me tell you briefly how does it feel when you've lost some of your memories...

-All i can recall is that once i fought with my best friend but i don't have a slightest idea why and how bad the fight was, i dont care about it now as it's been resolved.

-And then i remember that i had a toxic relationship but i dont know why it was toxic because i don't remember a single conversation i had with him.

-And i remember few of my friends betrayed and hurted me badly in high school's last year i remember who they are but i dont remember what they did and how i dealt with it.

Conclusion is that i know from whom to be careful and with whom to be carefree. And to add the cherry on the cake i don't remember any bad memory from the past 3 years . AND! MY OWN BRAIN! My own brain helped me.

I STRESSED UPON MY STRESS THAT MUCH THAT IT STOPPED STRESSING ME and ITS ROOT LEFT ME ALONE{bad memories i mean}, THANKFULLY!                    

Thanks for reading guys!

Love yourself upto the centuries mark.

And don't fall for that 1% focus on 99%only<3

24/09/2023